am feeling more and more disillusioned with this. I know that he is away, and that it is different when you are "away" than when you are the person left behind. I know he said it might be "good for us" to have some time apart. I also know he said he would call, and he hasn't, and despite myself I am waiting on it, and all I'm left with is feeling empty.

our relationship is in a bad place, and its been there before, but I felt like before we were both in it together. both trying to make it better together. now its just me. alone. feeling empty.